Well, you have to be committed and to be completely willing to break the cycle of self-sabotage. Cycles are areas in our life, that we are prone too and that have a clutch on our lives. In order to overcome the struggle of what you’re facing, is to simply understand the root of the problem. What caused it in the first place?, do you remember any experiences before it occurred?, and how does it make you feel? To solidify your boundaries with your problem is to identify it’s core construct. Work day by day, by building and creating healthy and positive habits. Make a list of needs to be done, and take courses on learning organization, management, and people skills. You must take action, that is critical for any cycle, trial, obstacle, etc.. It’s not that a want anymore, it’s a need. Taking small steps first can be extremely essential, once you have one foot on the door, the rest is good to go.