Getting older brings daily experiences. The body changes, of course, and that is the worst. Scary too, because a serious Diagnosis now can happen anytime and randomly. There is an awareness of mortality, which adds a richness to life. There is daily life review. There were many unexpected twists and turns. I often think back to certain events of my teens or twenties, vivid in memory , and think “if only I knew then what I know now”. I would say to my younger self “just keep doing the right thing, even when it hurts, and it will all come out ok”.
It is tough to get older, and have the wisdom now, that I really needed then. It would have been nice to know how temporary everything is, especially in the workplace. I wouldn’t have let it bother me as much.It’s strange to see all the changes in society. Many of them are for the good, but it it still strange. I remember a time in school, talking with a friend. I was talking about being there the next year or two, and he reminded me that he would graduate before that. I felt like college would go on and on forever, just like high school had, but the reality is time speeds up the day you graduate from high school. Although, at times I have difficulty relating to some of the people in their 20’s.
Overall, I am still learning daily and enjoying life. But it is also obvious to me that there will be a lot undone when my number is up.
Every now and then I ponder a comment someone made to me decades ago. Most of the people are probably gone by now. I think of different things, and how the world has changed. There are still so many questions.
The hardest thing is knowing I will not be able to do everything I want, in terms of traveling, reading, even watching certain movies. There won’t be enough time or money. I’ll have to make a lot of choices.